Closing the last chapter

 

Accomplishments

• respecting my intution
• not avoiding and trying to rid my shadow
• being honest and allowing myself to show up as lonely or tired
• being brave for making the change I had to do (even though I didn't like it), for trusting life
• acting even when afraid, and letting myself be afraid
• coming to see that when I though I was "doing nothing" that I've actually addressed lots of parts of my life that were very hard
• doing many things for the first time and jumping into that with gusto (weeding, mowing, showing pictures, climbing trees)
• ability to hold space for the group and be a gentle and gifted facilitator (beauty mirror).
• showing what it looks like to put yourself first, not about selfishness, but about checking in with where you are first
• bringing the awareness of beauty as not being about good or bad, and thus the capacity to find it everywhere
• honoring the body, and being embodied, and sharing that with the group
• bringing your heart and openness
• integrating the body into the self
• recognizing and being ok with disagreement

Completion of Failures, Goals, Promises, Expectations

• Giving up having to do everything.  I can't take care of everything.  I just can't.  I can do what I can do.  
• No more living for other people.  (excercise for girls, speaking to get it right, being right for my mom) 
• I trust life.  I'm willing to do what it takes go with her.
• Moving from a mostly internal focus of thinking to actually doing things, i.e. finding a balance between going in and participating outside
• release you from worring about how your stretching annoys me
• release you from having to explain exactly what beauty mirror is exactly
• release myself from beating myself for not accomplishing things, into being patient with myself

Opening the Next Chapter

 

Where is magic and inspiration leading me?

• Moving geographically to different places
• Into an ability to influence people in new and deeper ways, especially show ways to live better
• Trusting that life will place me where I will be able to be most helpful, be of most service
• To understanding that it's the way I do things that matters to a kind of integration
• Into the knowing what it feels like when things are right (not necessarily knowing where that is)
• Feeling really big, and strong
• Into forgiveness
• Into "Sweet Uncertainty" (felt in the jaw and head)
• Further into photography as a channel for beauty