Connor Turland+Next Step

Closing the Last Chapter

Acomplishments

switching from comp sci to knowledge integration in my first year of University
opening myself to and moving in to The Household
for continually revising my university coursework and courseload to lead to a happier and less in debt me
- example... I chose to skip an assignment, go for a walk, sit in the fields and know for myself what was of value
for being seen for who I am rather than numbers & transcript
for trusting my intuition and canceling Berlin ticket & trip which made it possible for me to do the Copenhagen trip the following year
for my online pursuits of learning and discovering the "real" stuff happening in the world that I care about (instead of Uni credit) e.g. MetaCurrency & NextEdge
participating in next edge groups as a rep for my age (me and Kyle) :)
for offering myself to be of service for the Europe trip and following those suggestions, which led to big, courageous, amazing, life-changing experiences and gave me the opportunity to start to be recognized on an international level for being a young player in this field I care about
for paying attention to relevant channels and my ability to recognize that I wanted to come to ELL
and for quickly making arrangements in my life, job, house, community and self to be here
my persistence in practicing self-acceptence and fluidity of being ... being not doing
for the courage it took to persist in going deeper into this unfolding
for increasing my capacity to say "no"
for asking for what I want
for accepting people's support and helping hands when offered
for the play I put on (wrote, recorded, choreographed, performed all within 48 hour period)
for sharing the "deepest why" about why I'm here and do what I do (esp. on the Google Hangout on Air)
for bringing the wisdom and distinctions from The Household and KI into the mix
for the bravery to exist outside of the social scaffolding of our society
for the wealth of experience your brought to me [Emory] driving, staying together, traveling together
for being in a brave and vulnerable place
for your play and your PLAY. For achieving what you said you wanted to do.
your spirit and determination to go where you want to go
your patience
your silliness, playfulness, ping-pong and crab hats
for playing ping-pong when we should have been making dinner
steadiness of purpose
musical talents
for using the space to sort out the unformed things within you
for doing your REAL work no matter what it looked like
having the courage to tackle starting one of these types of places in Waterloo
writing the sticky notes for myself... serious, significant, daunting, life-altering things... I've worked and played with them and shifted those relationships

Completions

I went from seeing my sister every day, to a world where I didn't see her so much. I didn't maintain a high level of contact with her or my folks. I'm releaseing the (projected) expectations that I should be communicating.
I release the self-judgment and criticism about failing to communicate.
I want to mark this as a transition point in my ability to express myself. I've reached it here, and now it's time to make a new goal.
I have the idea that others have the expectations of me to hold everything together for the group. I'm releasing that. (Household, Mad Hatter, Family, etc.)
I want to move forward without any attachment to outcomes in these groups
I'm releasing the idea that others won't take care of me in times of need
I'm letting go of the expectation that I have to keep it all together (for myself)... look polished or like have the answers
I release myself from the expecation that I should know how to do any of this already and should know more than I already know
I let go of the expectation that I need to be a certain person for Alex
Ruben: released of expectation to film tomorrow
Pri: release you of the expectation that you occupy the space of saying no. Others can say no too.
Eric: problems at the border
Art: no expectation of ELL in Waterloo... just an experience of partner, co-collaborator who will do whatever wants to happen
I release my expectation of myself that I have to take care of my older brother and be his older brother

Opening the Next Chapter

Where the magic and inspiration is leading me...

Growing with my family into a whole new configuration and set of relationships with magical, as of yet discovered possibilities
The leadership that is showing up with other young people in building co-creative spaces with heart. Growing with other inspired young men and women building deep relationshipos and new different future.
2012: opportunity for a big NEXT STEP for Humanity
learning about expanded worldviews and realities. It's big!
Excited about the magical quality to the New Economy Scene and the possibility of being of service to The Scene
Identify my "citizenship" with the Community of Practice of Global Changemakers
Down the rabbit hole and up the spiral

Ritual: Acknowledge the freedom that comes from acting from your center instead of from expectations: brother, sister, family groups.