Benjamin Brownell+Next Step
Closing the Last Chapter
Accomplishments
- being present and open here with detachment/release/surrender/openness to being acknowledged
- looking with fresh eyes into what I'm holding/carrying/intending
- focused efforts where I saw I could provide value
- a willingness to push/risk with others
- honesty
- new interactions
- mixing working & play
- cross-pollinating project
- being willing to look at fears, weaknesses, doubts & frustration
- finding strength to get through isolation & detachment
- being the first of our group to go swimming in the river
- building a balanced arch
- curry and cooking
- awesome video - working hard to complete a video project which carries a message we're trying to share
- finding chicken of the woods and other mushrooms and bringing it to our dining table
- taking initiative around gathering and picking food for our meals from the gardens
- passion for documentation / media and care for the audience to connect
- aperspectivalism
- kindness and sensitivity
- driving Ruben
- sexy legs!
- taking time to exercise regularly ... and for getting quiet time and connection to nature
- flexibility and ease around housing arrangements
- expressing urgency when needed
- knowledge: breadth and depth of practical knowledge
- courage to try to hitch-hike to australia
- consistent awareness of self and group
- self-awareness
- stewarding the conflict with Lynn gently and elegantly
- taking the week to drive across the country this spring
- sticking with the vision and passion for being a part of a project like this
- being brave and perservering
- giving permission to others to explore... and connect with earth...
- being scared and speaking anyway
- jumping right into leadership around fixing up the space on day one
- ocean room floor
- continue to explore gameshifting
- the size of your heart
- integrity, perspective, insight, clarity.
- humor and perspicacity
Completions
- releasing the need to have a clear plan
- I release my fear for my own survival
- release the sense of being incapable of having a loving relationship
- expectations of myself providing perfectly clear, concise communication
- let go of expectations for a personality that is full of humor, wit and spontaneity
- release the need to always be focused on a task, outcome or concrete goal
- letting go of the goal of excessive wealth in traditional terms... release the need for that kind of "security"
- let go of attachment to money as the measure of worth and wealth
- let go of failure have a home/community/partner/wealth/purpose/resume/family
- let go of changing the world (today)
- Pri: release you of the expectation that I have to do things your way for you to see me.
- Eric: release you of the expectation to do more video stuff
- release others of having to produce deliverables
- release others from having to communicate about ELL in a way that I expect
- release others from having to fit their story telling into my framework
- releasing connection and assessments about past incomplete projects and failures
- needing to know who I am
Opening the Next Chapter
Where is magic and inspiration leading me?
- into the great wide open
- facing fully forward each day
- being released, open and present
- returning to affirmation of myself
- play with exercise more and more (also as a way to connect with people and projects, and my own power and potental)
- continue to cultivate and explore ablity to see and convey through the magic of media
- accessing latent beauty, truth, value and coherence ... uncovering, discovering and connecting it
- weaving / finding common ground
- bridge building ... allowing people to step outside of their normal story into healthy new perspectives
- helping others to acknowledge and release
- ceremony of communion, amnesty, transcendance
- inspired to be more me each day
- stretching boundaries and growing without losing center / integrity
- taking on more practices ... kindness & compassion
- a lady in my future